How I came to Krishna Consciousness - Bhaktin Aparajita

Bhaktin Aparajita

My introduction to Krsna consciousness came through my mother, but not until later in my life. During my childhood, we were separated by circumstances for a period of time, which left a sense of distance between us. When we finally reconnected, she introduced me to Krsna consciousness — a gift she had discovered and nurtured during our time apart. Her devotion, patience, and faith made a deep impression on me, even before I fully understood the path she was offering.

Growing up with a modern education and a liberal upbringing, I was not raised in an environment that naturally fostered spiritual practices like chanting or devotional service. Instead, I was taught to value rational thinking, independence, and a worldview that often emphasized self-reliance and skepticism. Krsna consciousness seemed foreign at first, a path that didn’t fit neatly into the framework I had been given. I struggled to reconcile these teachings with the values I had learned, and at times, I questioned if it was a path meant for someone like me.

As I began to explore Krsna consciousness myself, it didn’t immediately feel natural or easy. I had many questions and often struggled to connect deeply with the practices. But through gradual exposure — hearing from sincere devotees, listening to classes, and observing the patience of those walking the path — a quiet curiosity began to grow. What started as a distant concept slowly became something more personal and meaningful, especially as I faced the challenges and uncertainties of life.

Even now, I sometimes struggle with doubts and questions about this path. There are days when faith feels strong and clear, and others when uncertainty clouds my vision. But through all of life's ups and downs, the practices of chanting, prayer, and listening to classes and lectures have been steady companions. They remind me that doubt itself can be part of the journey — an opportunity to deepen my understanding and dependence on Krsna's mercy. Despite the struggles, something within me keeps returning to His lotus feet, knowing there is no truer shelter.